Janet's great Mtv vma's perfomance,

I have no words to explain how much I loved Janet's performance. While I was watching it, I could feel her efforts to make Michael feels proud of her, and she did it, she made him feel prouder than he already is. She did it great. I felt every step and every word that she said while she was singing. Her faces in every step were just wonderful. But THE moment was when she started to dance next to him, I felt that Michael was alive, sawing them dancing together was amazing. I couldn't help crying, it was so emotional. And when she finished and look up at the sky, as if she was waiting for his approbation, that broke my heart. We all was able to watch how painful she is, and was at that time and how much she wanted to cry but she stayed strong. We was able to watch how much love and respect she has for him. I really admire her and her strength. Nobody could ever made a better tribute than the one she did. It was short but it had everything that a tribute must have. And who better than his sister to honor his memory ?. Janet definitely rocked the vma's, and made us cry. She was the best of the night. I hope you have enjoyed it as much as I did and continue doing.

Madonna's Mtv vma's speech.

I saw Madonna's speech yesterday and I don't want to sound like a bitch or a hater because I'm not, but every word she said made me feel angrier than the last one. When she finished the speech I had mixed feelings, I felt pain, sadness but most of all I felt angriness. I'm not saying that it was a bad speech, because it wasn't, but for my point of view it wasn't a very good speech either. I felt that she talked about her a lot, she made all this pointless comparisons, and she didn't tell me something that I didn't know. I think that she didn't realize that the speech must be about Michael and not about herself. But that wasn't what made me feel angry, the things that really made me feel angriness were when she started to say that everyone including her have abandoned Michael, that you don't know what you have until you lose it, how great he was and stuff like that. I don't want to hear it, I'm sick of hear it and every time I hear it I get sicker. I don't want to listen to it right now, now there's nothing we can do about it, we can't bring him back from death and now as kind as Madonna's words sounded are useless. I really appreciate what Madonna tried to do, but honestly I don't care and it's not because was Madonna who said it, I won't care even if The Holy Pope would said it, and the reasons is because all of those people had plenty time to realize how great Michael was as an entertainer but mostly as a human being and they didn't. So I wonder why did they need Michael's death to realized how great he was in life ?, it's not fair, because the people who's saying how great he was right now is the same people who said all that lies and judged him. And that's what made me feel sick and angry. That fake people. I'm not saying that Madonna is a fake, because she's not, but she's not as great as everyone thinks she is because of her speech. I respect her and her music and I respect everyones opinion, but for me it wasn't that special. Anyways I'll focus on the positive for a minute and I'm going to give her some points because she had the best intentions. I'm sorry if I sound disrespectful or kinda bitch, but I can't help saying what I think about it.

Friends forever ... Face whatever ?.

Today I had my bff's birthday party but it wasn't what it should be. I have to say that my bff is a boy, he's one of my closest friends since we both had sixteen years old, now I have twenty one and he has twenty two. We have the best of the friendships that someone could ever wanted to have, we know each other so well, we have the same interests and think the same way, when we're together most part of the time we spend it laughing. I love to spend my time with him or used to 'cause now we have a problem, he has a girlfriend since August of 2008. I don't have anything against her but apparently she has something against me. She doesn't allow him to speak with me or to spend time with me, he does it anyways but it's not he same, we don't have the same friendship and it husrts so bad. Now everytime we went out there are certain things that we can't do like take photographs holding each other or gives us a hug, thing that we usually did. We have boundaries now and I don't like it. And today we were like two strangers. Every time he came closer to me there she was, watching us, watching what we were doing, we couldn't took more than two photographs together, 'cause there she was doing that face like ''stay away from her''. It was so uncomfortable and painful. I was and am so mad with him and I even thought about just don't talk to him anymore but why should I do that he's my best friend I can't do that, I love him so much, I can't stay away from him. He's my best friend why should I stay away ?, I can't find a reason, it's not fair. She has to learn that we were friends before she was his girlfriend and she has to accept it. Just stop to put him boundaries, you're not his mother or anything like that. I can't stand that kind of people. If you really love someone you want the best for that person and friends are one of the most important things in everyone's life, you can't choose his friends or take friends out of his life just like that. It's all about trust and if you do that you're not trusting in that person, so why are you with someone you don't trust, it's crazy. I'm so mad and hurt right now. Mad because of her actions and her requests and hurt because the change of our relationship. I'm not asking her to like me or talk to me like if we were friends, 'cause I don't need anymore friends but to respect me as his boyfriend's friend, just like I respect her. I think it's not something impossible to do.

Never can say goodbye !.

Today was the day that they put you to rest in peace. I have to say it was one of the worse days of my life. I 'm not able to find the right things to say right now, I feel so overwhelmed by pain and sadness. I try to understand why God decided that it was your time to go with him and I can't find an answer, but it was his choice and I know I have to respect it. I believe so much in him, I never give up on him but there are times that I just wonder why he always decides to take the good people, I don't see it fair, but I guess he knows what he's doing and I'm going to respect it as I always did. To me you are more than an icon, more than an entertainer, more than a humanitarian. To me you are my long distance friend, my inspiration, my hero. Every time I am in some kind of trouble I listen to your songs or read some of your interviews and I find the answer to move on. You are the strength that keeps me on my feet when I think that my world is falling apart. You are the one that keeps me smiling even in my saddest days. I just have to think of you, listen to one of your songs or watch one of your dvd's tours and that's all I need to smile again, not more not less, just that. I never can thank you enough for everything you did and still do for me, for all of your fans and for all of the children and people in the whole world. I'm not going to say goodbye to you because though your body is no longer in this world with us I know your spirit and your soul is, I feel it, so you are with me somehow, leading me and making me to take the right choises. I will always believe in you, you will continue to inspiring me from heaven and I know that someday we will see us, and I will be able to tell you how much you mean to me. I will think about you every day of my life until God decides to take me with him. You will always be The King, not only of entertainment, not only of music, not only of humanitarians, but of my heart. Your soul is in heaven since June 25th and now your body can rest in peace. Long live to you my beloved king. I will always miss you.
I love you more, I will always do.

King of my heart.

Without you music won't be music. You were an innovator in everything you've done, a perfectionist, a passionate of what you did. Though you are the best entertainer and dancer of all times, you were a great humanitarian, always helped people who needed it the most, giving millions of dollars to charity or with a kind word trying to give them hope so they could move on trough that hard time. Through your songs you tried to make us understand that there's a better world, that with one little change we can make a big difference. That no one has the right to judge nobody. That every person is special in their own way. That if you want some respect from others you have to show them respect first. And that no one can change at least they have changed in his heart first. I have no words to say how much you inspire me. You made me realized that there's no better feeling that when you help a person without asking for anything in change. I know you're leading me to take the right way and helping me to make things right. I'm sure you're in the best place, because that's what you deserve. Now you can rest in peace, the can't hurt you anymore. You will always be the king and your music and everything you have done will forever live in our memory. You try your best to heal the world and you did it somehow. I admire you and miss you always. Rest in peace.
I love you more !.